Was I left behind?

Someone tell me, tell me I survived. 
Don't look so surprised that I'm home, but just for tonight.
With rough hands and sore eyes
so don't speak, I am tired.
Let's just live through this lie. 

She says I swear too much, 
she says a lot of things, 
well I'd swear every other word if I could
for her I'll make an attempt. 
Sometimes love isn't about how much someone suits you
but how much you're willing to change to suit them.

All my bones are dust,
(Two people too damaged too much too late)
and my heart's sealed with rust.
(Two people too damaged too much too late)
These hands will always be rough.
(Two people too damaged too much too late)
I know this won't count for much.
(Two people too damaged too much too late)

One day my hands were too soft, 
one day she said, "I'm tired". 
one day her clothes were on my floor, 
one day, empty bottles. 

Well I'm not saying she's my last. 
I'm just saying that she could have been, 
it doesn't matter how rough these hands get. 
It doesn't matter cause I'm not her man.

Rough hands
rough days,
rough hands
rough nights,
rough hands,
rough season,
rough hands,
rough fights...

Love is not a victory march

It's a cold and it's a broken Hallelujah. 

Posting Fail.

Good effort with running a blog Nardia -.-

I would love to say I have and excuse but I really don't.

I am lack motivation to do my coursework too.

Hopefully I will find some soon.

It's hard to get started when you can't see the finish.

Coursework just does not stop this semester :/

Can only do my best I guess.

I can't really be bothered with a picture.

Here's a dog and cat instead.

Christmas is Saved!

I made THE best truffles for Sam today. I am going to wrap them up nicely and give him them tomorrow. I am proud of myself. I am very very excited for Christmas now. Here's my new Christmas jumper.

Only two more sleeps till Santa. Ciao.

Here comes Santa Claus?

I kinda fucked up Christmas with my boyfriend, his presents aren't coming till the 28th.
At least he did the same thing. Guess we can have a late Christmas together.
In other news my hair is dip dyed, but you can't really see it.

It's meant to be lighter at the bottom.

Meh, oh well. Ciao for now.

Guess Who's Back

Long time no see.
I kinda lost touch with this blog for a long time.
Now I am back and here to stay. 
Saying that, I'm not really too sure what to say tonight.
So, the world is ending soon.
 I think this is the best thing to come out the whole ordeal 

Oh durex, you never fail to be awesome. And on that bombshell
Goodnight.

Wishlist

If someone took me to Vidcon this year I would repay them with so many sexual favours.
I also really want this bra

Pursuing Happiness

I'm on a roller-coaster that only goes up.

My holiday was awesome.

I passed first year of uni on a 68% average.

I've applied for jobs.

This is how I now feel.

Resuming Normality.

I feel the need to make my posts more upbeat again.
Things are looking up. Things are being sorted out.
I am optimistic. I am also going on holiday tomorrow.
See,  life is good.

I am sick to the stomach with guilt.

I am leading this guy on.
I can't act single.
I have a boyfriend.

But I feel so lonely.
You make me feel so lonely
You're pushing me away.
And you're too stupid to realise

All these fairy tales are full of shit

One more fucking love song I'll be sick

More moody posts

I'm in a funny mood.
I just don't want to be around anyone.
Keeping it cheerful and all that.
Urgh.
This film probably isn't making me feel any better
Although it is rekindling my love for Alex Turner.

God I love the sun.

It just makes everything so much better

Plus I go home on Sunday

Brilliant :D

These streets have too many names for me

I'm used to Glenfield Road and spending my time down in Orchy (8)

I am incredibly homesick now.

Everyone's Leaving

All my Bristol friends are going home. I'm by myself. Well, my house mate returns on Monday, but I don't really like her. My best friend Josh is heading back to Swindon tomorrow. I'm going to miss him so fucking much. He's a comfortable replacement for my boyfriend in this long distanceness. At least I go home a week tomorrow. I will be when I eventually book my tickets.
In other good news, holiday time is creeping nearer. I forced myself to go shopping. The result is quite pleasing I think. I look like a Tumblr dick in half my clothes but I don't even care. I don't have anything else to say to you now, so, yeah. Bye.

My newly cut up t-shirt. Thoughts?

Post Exam Shenanigans

Exams have finished so I spent four straight days drinking. I'm not going to lie, it was pretty awesome. This picture of me in a shopping trolley sums up the experience. I had a house party on Friday. This girl got so drunk she couldn't stop throwing up. I didn't mind that too much, it happens to the best of us, but then some stupid bitch called an ambulence, which was a waste of everyone's time. Honestly, the 'medical advice' that the paramedic gave was to give her a cuppa and put her to bed. I was fuming.

I'm going to miss Bristol over summer though. I will miss everyone too much. I will try and post tomorrow. Until then, bye.

Insecurities

I would give anything to look like this. 

And I don't feel happy with myself. 

And summer is coming up.

I can't hide away forever

Nocturnal Nonsense.

It's been a while, so my apologises for that. There's just too much to do and not enough time in the day. So I've been home since the last post. That was awesome. Attended a wedding, got to see my old friends and saw my boyfriend again. Yay :) I don't realise how hard long distance is until I see him again. It was five months since I was last home, that's a fucking long time I tell you.
Sat two three hours exams this week. It's about as fun as it sounds. Only two left now, I can see the light at the end of the tunnel. Post exam parties are going to be amazing, and very well deserved. I still can't sleep and I need to wake up to revise tomorrow. Urgh. Well I leave you with a picture from the wedding and a promise to post more often. Ciao.

Well that lasted.

I'll keep a blog she says, I'll update every day she says. So I didn't make a post yesterday. It has irritated me a lot more than it should. I just want to make a project and stick to it for once in my god damn life. In other news I have made a little revision den in my living room, it's fucking awesome. I'd like to believe it's made me more productive. It's not as awesome as Troy and Abed's fort, but it'll do.

Now I need to go get food and continue my revision. Ciao for now.